Queen in Gold
The content of this post is actually similar to a journal entry and not so similar to what I would typically write on here. But this won’t be the first time a journal entry becomes a blog post – so here we go.
The back story
Early this morning, I washed dishes while listening to worship music. (I really don’t like washing dishes, so I try to make the best of it.)
Then I felt a nudge from Holy Spirit “Look; the sun is coming up. Open the blinds so you can see it.” So I did.
Then I thought about whether it was light enough outside to go for a run. Not because I was actually considering going for a run in this icy weather, but because of that one morning I went for a run when it wasn’t completely light outside yet (confession).
And as these thoughts crossed my mind, I felt Holy Spirit say “That’s today.”
He was right.
Today is the 12th of June and 2 years ago I met Josephine as she was On her way to heaven.
I didn’t memorize the date after the incident, but I know it now, because last year God reminded me thereof in a similar way when I randomly stumbled across the blog post again on that day.
(Nope, wasn’t even through Facebook – even though that would totally make sense as On her way to heaven is the most read post on Queen in Gold to date – I think.)
If you have no idea what I’m talking about now; it might be good to give the real back story a read first.
So why did He remind me?
She mattered. After the incident life somehow continued as “normal”, but this didn’t nullify her existence.
There were people who knew her and loved her and probably still miss her today.
But even more than she mattered to them;
SHE MATTERED TO GOD.
I heard a quote last week saying:
“You never lock eyes with someone who doesn’t matter to God.”
You never do. Yet most of us lock eyes with people who don’t know they matter to Him every single day. This morning I was reminded that I still have the opportunity to make a difference in those people's lives.
Last night someone crossed my mind – someone I actually have more of a formal relationship with and someone I know doesn’t know Jesus. And in that moment I experienced God was asking me to send her a message to say I’m praying for her and her family. Just as I was about to seriously object this thought, truth came:
“I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes...”
Because I realized my message might deeply offend her, I asked Him to remind me of her again this morning if it was really Him speaking. He did. And then He reminded me of Josephine and the urgency to share the gospel.
Eyes on Jesus
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Pioneer and Perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” – Hebrews 12:1-3
Before sitting down to write this I had a little bit of a feeling-sorry-for-myself moment. I think it was because of something ridiculous like the fact that I’m cold and then my sanitizer fell over and leaked across the floor.
So I had to acknowledge how self-absorbed I was and realize that there’s a bigger world out there – a world that desperately needs Jesus.
Taking a look back
Here’s a quote from the post I wrote 2 years ago (which also happens to contain some verses from Hebrews 12):
“...'Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.’ The words ‘once more’ indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.” – Hebrews 12:26-27
This morning’s incident shook our community. I believe it happened in order to establish God’s Kingdom – the Truth that cannot be shaken.
Living in a country where we’re confronted with brokenness, poverty and violence on a daily basis, we so often tend to grow numb to it. We turn our backs and look the other way.
I believe that we are called to embrace the shaking; standing firm in the One we know to be unshakable!”
Over the last few months this verse from Hebrews 12:26-27 has been on my heart once again. Not just our community, but the whole world is shaking right now.
I still believe we are to stand firm in the One who is unshakable, but even more than that; I believe now is a time to boldly proclaim the good news!
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About the blog
Queen in Gold is a blog for the feminine heart. I hope to inspire other women to stand up in their God-given identity.
My name is Riani.
I love flowers, board games, arty markets, food, dancing, music and spring....