Queen in Gold
This morning I watched a woman die. She had been stabbed. I was the one who found her. In fact, I heard her screaming just before. A few moments later I was sitting beside her when she gave her last breath.
The journey I’m on
A few weeks ago I asked God what we were journeying on. It didn’t feel like there was anything He was currently teaching me. That Friday, Hendrik (my boyfriend) and I were planning to go to a worship night at our church. Due to an accident causing really bad traffic, we were more than an half an hour late. I didn’t see the point in going anymore; thankfully Hendrik was a little bit more determined.
That night I experienced God’s heart like never before. (I’m not even exaggerating!) He gave me so much compassion for the lost. I’ve never cried for lost people like that night. It was horrible and wonderful all at the same time.
For the first time I really felt the weight of what we are called to do (Matt 28:19-20). I wanted to go out and share the truth. I had this deep desire to express God’s love to the world.
I started praying for the lost – for specific names God placed on my heart. I reached out to long lost friends. I got up earlier to pray. More than ever, I was determined and excited to see God use Queen in Gold as an instrument in calling individuals into His love.
In this process I discovered so much more of God and His love for myself.
I realized that because I was trusting and seeking God to work through me – He would!
Like (almost) every other morning, I went for a jog. And at precisely the right time I came across a woman who had just been stabbed. I heard her screaming a few moments before coming around the corner. If I was a few seconds earlier, I might have been hurt as well. If I was a few minutes earlier, I might not even have come across the incident at all or I might have been stabbed instead.
"I realize that the only reason I am writing this is because of His protection!"
But God wanted me to be there at the time I was. I realize that the only reason I am writing this is because of His protection!
After ringing door bells and stopping cars, I went to sit next to her, waiting for the paramedics. She was still alive, but not responsive. I reached my hands out and prayed for her in my spirit. I remember praying that God will cover her in love. I also remember experiencing peace that it was no longer necessary to pray. I remember fighting against it.
This was the first time I saw someone die.
Why I’m sharing this with you
I believe that if you’re reading this today; you are one of two people.
You are either someone in desperate need of a Saviour or you are someone who needs to stop being numb to the lost and broken world around you.
If you need Jesus
“ For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” - John 3:16-17
If you skipped that verse because it’s something you know from Sunday school; please go back up and read it again.
God loves you my friend! He loves you so deeply, overwhelmingly and uncontrollably – He gave of Himself in order that you might be saved. He longs to be in a relationship with you so much – He died and conquered death so that you might not be separated from Him. He chose to forget the pain you have caused Him (Romans 3:23-24).
He longs to give you this gift of eternal life. But it’s not just an eternal life – it’s a life of abundance (John 10:10) and sharing in His glory (Romans 8:17).
If you need His compassion
I don’t think God gives us a full measure of His heart for the lost permanently. We will be too wrecked to actually do anything about it. But He gives us experiences, like little motivations to keep us going.
If you have a longing to experience His heart for the lost, why not ask Him? Jesus taught that we can ask for anything in His name (John 14:13-14).
I came across this verse I never knew existed:
“...'Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.’ The words ‘once more’ indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.”
This morning’s incident shook our community. I believe it happened in order to establish God’s Kingdom – the Truth that cannot be shaken.
Living in a country where we’re confronted with brokenness, poverty and violence on a daily basis, we so often tend to grow numb to it. We turn our backs and look the other way.
I believe that we are called to embrace the shaking; standing firm in the One we know to be unshakable!
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About the blog
Queen in Gold is a blog for the feminine heart. I hope to inspire other women to stand up in their God-given identity.
My name is Riani.
I love flowers, board games, arty markets, food, dancing, music and spring....