Queen in Gold
Our Story (Part 2)
I said goodbye in Part 1 right after telling you how I friend-zoned Charl and then cried because I knew we couldn't be friends.
Honestly, I think Part 1 is the juiciest part of our story, where Part 2 is just one big messy situation. But considering that I can't just leave you hanging there, I might as well go ahead and share the rest.
Charl couldn't sleep that night. He ended up sending me a really long message at 4 am.
I've been sitting here now battling to describe it in words, without actually just going ahead, typing it out, and giving you all the corny details. Then this Scripture came to mind:
"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." – Proverbs 31:30
Charl didn't try to convince me to give him another chance.
He didn't ask me what was wrong with him.
He made it fairly obvious that he liked me, but what impacted me most was the way he honored me and my decision.
He was sincere. He didn't tell me I have a nice smile or anything like that, but spoke of my value in Christ. He said I deserve the best and encouraged me to wait on God's timing.
After reading it the next morning I got back in bed and cried.
Then I went for a run and cried some more.
God's best and your value in Christ
The fact that you serve Jesus is the most attractive thing about you.
The "Proverbs 31 woman" as we all know and compare ourselves to her, was actually a letter from a mother to her son. She uses poetic language to describe an ideal woman, in order to help him find a suitable wife.
In your quest to find a suitable husband you have a choice to settle for the nice guy who thinks you're beautiful, or you can wait for the man who knows that the most important quality in his future wife is whether or not she serves the Lord.
"Lord, am I doing the right thing? I really don't want to hurt this guy. Or either of them for that matter"