Four years ago God sent me to live in England for a year. I still remember standing in the airport after passing through customs. 19 Year old and teary eyed, I said goodbye to my family for a whole year (Ended up visiting them somewhere in the middle though). There I was, heading to a country where I didn’t know anyone and they didn’t speak my home language.
Everything before me was completely unknown, but somewhere in the midst of the unknown I felt inferior. This was what it felt like to step onto the water – so unsure if I would be able to walk, but oh so willing to try.
My family has one of those kettles that make a really loud shrieking noise when the water is boiled. At this point someone usually has to run up to the kettle to switch it off. Sometimes when I’m in too much of a hurry I have to press the “off” button a number of times before I actually press it. The trick is to remain calm in spite of the loud noise screeching in your ears.
So while trying to switch off the kettle earlier today, I thought of how some official person would always say “Please remain calm...” in the case of an emergency. Ironically, most people don’t. How can we remain calm in emergencies if we aren’t even calm in our day to day lives?
These past few weeks I’ve been confronted with the idea of hopelessness. I also came across so many Christians struggling to see God’s light in times of darkness. Failures, lies and an overall negative society; ruin our dreams, drag us down and leave us feeling hopeless and far from God.
Amidst the battle fought for a glimpse of hope, I heard this uplifting testimony of a friend. Liezl reflects on her struggle with hopelessness and the simple way God came to restore her hope.
If you are struggling with hopelessness today, you are not alone. If you have a longing for God’s presence, but somehow can’t seem to reach Him; if you feel frustrated and confused, this is for you.
What does it mean to wear your heart on your sleeve? According to Google this entails exposing your true emotions. It’s letting other people see your heart, the real you; underneath all pretense. This takes serious vulnerability!
Most people dream about living a life that’s extraordinary. Most people dream that their life will be one of impact and not one that goes by unnoticed. And then sadly, most of us have days we feel like a total failure, because we just don’t seem to manage having this type of life.
Just last week I had a day like that. I just didn’t seem to reach the goals I set out for myself. This was the voice of the enemy, for I am not a failure and neither are you, beautiful God-creation reading this post! This just inspired me to revisit success; its Godly definition and what it takes to get there.
About the blog
Queen in Gold is a blog for the feminine heart. I hope to inspire other women to stand up in their God-given identity.
My name is Riani.
I love flowers, board games, arty markets, food, dancing, music and spring....