While on holiday a few weeks ago, I (Riani) received a voice note from Bianca Swart, the chairperson of a ministry called Women of Worth (WOW). I was so excited about being contacted by a complete stranger who heads up a ministry I’ve never even heard of. I’m even more excited about being able to take hands with them and even head down to Bloemfontein for their conference in August.
WOW is only seven months old, which is pretty much the same age as Queen in Gold. It is such a privilege to support each other in this season. God is so faithful in opening doors.
In this article, Bianca shares about finding her worth and trusting in God.
This morning I watched a woman die. She had been stabbed. I was the one who found her. In fact, I heard her screaming just before. A few moments later I was sitting beside her when she gave her last breath.
The journey I’m on
A few weeks ago I asked God what we were journeying on. It didn’t feel like there was anything He was currently teaching me. That Friday, Hendrik (my boyfriend) and I were planning to go to a worship night at our church. Due to an accident causing really bad traffic, we were more than an half an hour late. I didn’t see the point in going anymore; thankfully Hendrik was a little bit more determined.
That night I experienced God’s heart like never before. (I’m not even exaggerating!) He gave me so much compassion for the lost. I’ve never cried for lost people like that night. It was horrible and wonderful all at the same time.
These past few weeks I’ve been confronted with the idea of hopelessness. I also came across so many Christians struggling to see God’s light in times of darkness. Failures, lies and an overall negative society; ruin our dreams, drag us down and leave us feeling hopeless and far from God.
Amidst the battle fought for a glimpse of hope, I heard this uplifting testimony of a friend. Liezl reflects on her struggle with hopelessness and the simple way God came to restore her hope.
If you are struggling with hopelessness today, you are not alone. If you have a longing for God’s presence, but somehow can’t seem to reach Him; if you feel frustrated and confused, this is for you.
What does it mean to wear your heart on your sleeve? According to Google this entails exposing your true emotions. It’s letting other people see your heart, the real you; underneath all pretense. This takes serious vulnerability!
The aim of Queen in Gold is to enable young women to embrace their God-given title as the royal Bride of Christ. I happen to wake up many days not feeling much like the royal Bride. Here is a little bit of my journey and the lessons I’ve learnt – maybe you can relate.
Since God placed this blog on my heart there have been many doubts of whether or not I am truly the Queen it represents. The enemy bore witness to my sin and accused me of being unholy; unworthy and two-faced. I’ve certainly looked to God asking why: Why did He choose me to be in this relationship with Him? Even more; why does He want to use our relationship if we both know it’s not all that perfect? We both know how often I stumble and how often I choose to follow my own thoughts and ideas– so why would He choose me?
About the blog
Queen in Gold is a blog for the feminine heart. I hope to inspire other women to stand up in their God-given identity.
My name is Riani.
I love flowers, board games, arty markets, food, dancing, music and spring....